Y Don't you go F**k yourself!

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Y Don't you go F**K yourself!!!!!

Well its was very late at night yesterday and i did a very stupid thing ending in a situation where Jessica says things which equal's to " Why Don't you go F**K yourself!!"

Well i have to admit that move wasn't a smart move for me. But i was desperated .. sigh what can i say...

Well guess this is really a big one....

the Banana have spoken

Basketball.....

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Basketball.....

Well just went basketball training yesterday night.
I have to admit my past 10 years of basketball playing is all rubbish.
I arn't that good as i think i am !
no wonder i dont get much ball at the first place

But since training under a coach, really increased in movements and other stuff.

well so i guess self taught is always been a bullshit thing.

Kinda like my New Basketball jersey though No. 15 hrm looks kinda nice
Its free still .

Argh need to train up .

Still have the 3 Targets to achieve

Plus 2 more which are:

4. Train up for sports
5. Get a driver's licence hopefully by the mid of next year.

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Targets.....

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Targets.....

Well.... I have no idea what the hell I was thinking last night it was near 10 pm when I got back from my work yesterday.

I changed into my sports wear and running shoes, grab my mp3 player and went to run!
Goodness is this me?

Its just like a snap of the mind where I just felt that I wanted to do this.....

the next thing you know it I was at tiong baru ! hrm interesting..

yah lah for some of you guys who know where I live from Tanjong pargar to Tiong Baru is not that much of a distance, but just remember it ME!

The guy who dreaded jogging actually went jogging?!

Well its kinda fun I ran till the Tiong Baru CC. Total feeling sick after breathing all those fumes of the tight traffics.

Thought to myself that if i want to really run I would prefer a park.
Running near the road is simply killing you lungs rather than helping it. Agree?

So I guess I might be going to East Coast Park to run bah .
I don't really like running on the tracks very stressful and boring.

3 Targets I hope to achieve for this year's sports events

1. SAFRA Sheares Bridge Run & Army Half Marathon in Sept (6 or 12KM depends on my ability)

2.Take up Rock Climbing, Well I always wanted to do that

3. The highlight of the year end AyDeng's Event the Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon on the 3rd Dec. Of course its the 10 km one lah

Hopefully I am able to achieve at all 3 of them. Those who are interested feel free to join me k?

Need to train liao loh.

Well the osim triathalon is a very very far fetch but hey if i can down to my ideal weight in 2 years maybe it can be achievable.

First of for most is from 110KG to 75 KG

Jia You

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Hrm.... Vision?

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Hrm.... Vision?

Well that night after kanna fuck by Tyler for bring a stand still ( well that's the meaning I heard )

Well its correct I am a pathetic .
I dont like my job
I dont like my life
I am not satasified with what i have now
But i am not doing anything to make it better...!

well its me being fucking lazy and low moral.

Ego to big i admit ... well i guess i am a sad fuck...

I'm 25 but my achievements are equal to a fresh 21 year old ORD NS guy
The word is FRESH people
FRESH in working term = inexperience

i am totally lacking back by 4 years
GOD i had that i am wrong ....
Dont need for pity but i think there wouldnt be any.

To be honest I totally dislike the Chinese way of life.

being the eldest has to be responsible for all the family stuff.

I am too human but being burden by the responsbilities of being the eldest

i do have dreams

but who has ever really ask me what is it?

yes its total selfish of me to even to think of this and even more selfish to write it out for the entire world to see.

my dream is a very selfish one i admit.

which human is not selfish?

look around you ?

your GF most likely likes you because
a . You are rich enough to pay for her shopping and drives her around ( Sucker)
b. You have a career which makes you busy so she can sleep with other guys while keeping you.
c. She is blind

Dudes your no Saint ! We all know Guys are Bastards!

your BF most likely LOVES you is because
a. a build in maid where you go to his house and clean up his mess
b. You are simply a dumb gal where he can sleep with you while he sleeps with other women.
c. Your daddie is filthy rich

all of the above is to describe a large amount of people living in singapore would think

I used to believe in fairy tales . but hey guess wat there is no santa claus or tooth faires.

i know people will be offended by this entry but hey dont think any one would even bother about me as i am neither an icon nor a famous person.

who gives a shit about me?

I got no drivers licence so dont even talk about Car .
I have no career. all i got a is job that pays me crapy salary that does nothing.
I ant rich
and i am fat.

well things are going to change around here

i do have visions now

a couple of short ones and a big one

Super Short ones:
a. Pay off my bad debts

short ones (mean hope to achieve in 5 years time):
a. get my fat ass down from 110 KG to 90 KG first then we can talk about 75KG
( yes yes yes wow i am fat! )
b. get a driver's licence (but i am not going to get a car. a car is useless in singapore)
c. Get a degree in commerce ( for those who seen my msn nick you know wat i mean )

Long one:
To work in New York City , Yes the Big Apple , the Big cheese .

Every body knows i love New York City.

If i can make it there i can make it any where

Hopefully i can make it there.

No not as a washer in a chinese resturant in chinatown NYC.

but a regluar job or even better a career.

Now there is a Vision for me.

The Banana Had Spoken.

Well... Aimless i am

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Well... Aimless i am

Well it was 2 am on a thusday morning i had a very big big blow to my personal life . With the help of close friends i reliese that i am no one yet. living in a well thats how i see my self. Getting out of the safely zone... hrm its something that i have not tried before to be honest.

Being a ego cheapo bastard as i am. i admit i am no saint ....

I WILL NO LONGER COMPARE MY SELF TO 2002 AYDENG as that Aydeng was at least fit

I WILL NO LONGER TALK ABOUT HOW I FEEL ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE as to be honest most people dont give a fuck shit about how you feel about them neither do they would think a sec more about you.

I WILL LEARN from my past. ego is a main block of mine . But i will keep my pride. As much as i have a huge ego i still want my pride as that is all i got left.
ego yes can be get rid of but not with in a sec i am still human am i i need to learn .

that day was simply always a ego crushing time . well i appricaite it as i dont need it.

A lot of people does no understand a shit i talk about. well too bad i no longer feel i have to share stories or Philosophy

but i will set my self as a good example
to my families
to my GF
to my Close friends

setting a good example does not mean i have to prove to any of the above i am good. Hell no i just feel i am no there yet . not a bit

Respect ...

i used to desire that. I would kill for that, for porky and tyler they know .
the desire for respect is so fucking big it turns to Dellusions to me.

Well there are people who give me respect cause i am older or i am big size or the things i do in my past.

well i dont mind the Barbarian, the Gorilla or Steel Man.

Cause i am happy that at least people bother to give me a nick.

Respect is being earned. Not being asked for. at least i do that now.

I do feel hurt that my younger friends do things for me cause they feel i threaten them to do so.
well i its my part of being that loud.

well i am truthfully sorry for my part.

well the night cycle incident really was a learning thing for me.. reason that they came is not the desire to learn. just to give me face.... well i dont want that to be honest lol

my objective was to pass down a losing interest. i guess by forcing is really really my bad.

I would not stop seeing good stories that inspires me.
Cause thats what give me the passion to keep going.
for this i am not wrong
In others pt of view my action seems useless

well like porky said
we give you comments and advice . but its you who make the judgement of what we say.

i donno if its the same meaning as
in our pt of view some things are right but may not apply to you.

hopefully its the same .

i will not change like a whole person cause it would not be ME!

but i will change to a better person . changing my weakness.

i am no saint i need time.

For those who do not understand wat am i writing about most of this entry. its okie cause its for me to read 30 years from now .
to see how screw up i am when i was 25.

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Song that tells....

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Song that tells....

I was browsing the youtube but suddenly i tot of the singer John Legend.
the following song is by far his best creation.

"Ordinary People" By John Legend.



[Verse 1]

Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

[Bridge]

I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

[Verse 2]

This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss then we make up on the way

[Bridge]

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

[Verse 3]

Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
We never know baby youuuu and I

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Heyyy)
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow


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Engarge Life like the Haka

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Engarge Life like the Haka



Well Life it self is too short its 11 am i am at the office doing this shit. But fuck it. I got to live life by myself the way i want it. I want to ask my self at my death bed when i die, did i do what i was born to do? I want to answer Yes.

Be Brave not reckless from now on... i am sick of being a Mars bar. Hard on the outside but soft and stick on the inside.

I got to live on my own way. either come along side with me or simply pls get out of my path.

Live Strong finally makes a little sense.

once my debts are all cleared. I will seek what i want to do.

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National Dumb Ass!

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National Dumb Ass!

Goodness! This morning has proven once again how some Singaporeans are either total ignorant or simply does not understand English!

Well was riding the company bus to work this morning, well the usual I was listening to Class 95. The Flying Dutchmen was posing a question for the listeners to call into express their views.

The question was "What if Singapore is able to have very well trained players and has everything from very good technical sports director to very good trainers. Which manager would you like, to lead Singapore to the world cup?"

Such a simple question, in simple English it means if Singapore HAVE good players WHO would you like to have to manage the national team of Singapore?

The first caller was either sleeping or just simply brainless! The reply was it should be Singapore! Saying that Singapore should give full support for the national team and if not no way they can make it to the world cup.

FD tried to nicely faze the question again to the, I guess still sleepy caller, WHO would you like, to LEAD the Singapore national team!

Still the bugger still repeated the same answer!

Only by the second rephrasing, then the caller said either Guus Hiddink or Luiz Felipe Scolari.

I felt that he is either just simply trying to find a media to criticize the Singapore government or plain dumb.

The second caller sounds more alert but still ignorant like the first one. Well his ans was "no matter which good manager we could have, we would still not be able to reach the world cup". No coach name given.

Argh the whole point was give a NAME damn it!

Guus Hiddink, Luiz Felipe Scolari, Zico etc etc not blah blah on how Singapore soccer cannot make it.

Damn it everyone in Singapore KNOWs that Singapore football cannot make it, no need you two bozos to tell it over national radio!

I could sense FD's frustration during this 10 mins lol.

Look if you like to hear your own voice to be heard by the entire island be my guest. But please don't make a fool out of your self on national radio.

The Banana have spoken.

Believe and Trust

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Believe and Trust

I was watching Cable when i came across the last show with Jay leno
He was interviewing the Miami Heats Head Coach Pat Railey
Pat Railey told a short story which i feel is very enlighting and i would like to share to all who reads my blog.

A Long time, a go there was a famous tight ropewalker that tied a rope across the Niagara Falls. He then claimed that he could cross the falls and even do stunts on the rope while crossing it.

The people around the falls thinks he was crazy and thought that he was going to fall to his death.

But in the end he proved them wrong by crossing the ropes and even jumping on the rope doing a few stunts.

When he went across the rope, everyone cheered.

He then asked the audience
"Do you believe that I am able to walk across the rope again doing the same things over again?"

The audience replied
"We believe you!"

"Do you believe I can repeat the stunts over and over again"

"Yes we believe you!"

He then asked another question

"Well do you believe that I can carry a barrel and balance it with me across the rope still doing all the same things?"

"Yes Yes we believe you!"

Finally he said

"Good! Then you get into the barrel"



The moral of this short story is that

"Believe in someone or something is one issue
Trusting is another."

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