Water - Dominant

You are a very mellow person and just seem to flow from one thing to another so easily... You have many talents and succeed in most things you try... Your moods seem to constantly change... You long to be free and hate to be caged...

Animagi form: Mermaid
Most compatible with: Elecricity
Least compatible with: Earth
Song: The Great Beyond - R.E.M
Ruling God: Poesidon

Enbrace the New Generation!

The Banana speaks

its 3 am on a wed morning ... just came back after a walk walk session with porky and tyler. its cool to hang out with them they talk cock and stuff..

but it feels different .. its not fun anymore ... maybe its just that them and i are now leading a total different life style and different mindset..

well not that i dont feel that they are my best friends lah ..

they are indeed good friends of mine...

but some how we are getting more apart.

porky and tyler thinks almost the same ... exciting looking wacky , clubbing, drinking and stuff

they have more topic to talk to each more then with me...

tonight i could count the no of things i talked ... lol first time in my life i am not the most talktive one...

i guess people change, they are happy for me when i am happy, so do i as i would feel the same.

its just that i dont really interact with them much liao.. the bonding is not as close as last time.

they begin to enbrace the new generation...

there are some things i dont like about the new generation... but i dont mind it .

its just old school thinking i guess...

i have being assumed to be such manner ... i dont like it ...

i just feel that now i got a group of good friends but no best friends ...

i guess seeing too much of friends is not a very good thing after all hahahaha

ideally i wish we talk about anything i dont want to the the third person that who just listen to the 2 person talking ...

i feel so left out

so out of place ..

i wanted to tell them that i felt that way but knowing the reply would be i think to much ...

but i do feel that way .. i just dont want to ruin the mood.

i know they treat me like a good friend .. i do too

i cant force them to change, nor could i force my self to change

tyler always tell me there are things porky would tell him but not with me... at first i feel sad coz i tot i am up to a level of friends where we tell everything..

i guess i am not those kinda of person who you want to tell your deep sad sides with ...

maybe some one to just walk with...

well i begin to like the no talking postition.

the other day tyler told me porky ask him to join his clan as a group of 5 players to play dota ... i was quite suprise and mixed up ..

i mean porky nvr invited me into the group before......

at that point i had to play it cool cause if i show any suprise it would make me look immature..


last time as we walk home after such things we would tok on the way back .. but tonight so few word..

i sound like a fucking girl ... why so senstive? right?

maybe be i see too much friends and naruto liao .... must cut down on it....

do i too need to enbrace the new generation? just to click with my good friends?

or am i just living in a little world of my own?

The Banana have spoken

UNI Dream

The Banana Speaks

Uni Dream

Well i had a dream a couple of days ago. i dreamt of me admiting to nus and moving to the hostal.
the funny thing was how my dad freaked out when i told him i am going to nus and had moved in to the hostal.... lol it was so so real.......

when i woke up .... i was like damn ...... but it felt so real and deep inside my heart i felt fucked up and sad .....

maybe deep inside i really want to go to uni and enjoy uni life ... but now its just full of regrets .. should have studied hard in secondary.....

i feel so shitty now...

The Banana Have Spoken.....

Well .... how should i put it

The Banana Speaks...

Well --- how should i put it.

its been mightly long since i entry this blog... hahaha its the holidays for me!

well to me this is my last holiday before my real life entry to the working world of singapore( sigh)

but hey i am still me .. through out this 1 month of doing nothing i have just relise that we are living in a place where we all have to please the people around us. please the people make them think your useful or something..
well i dont need to prove anyone anything..

yes this is a very childish way to say it ..

but that doesnt mean i am not responsible or reckless

in other people's eye i am not that good as they stand by their pt of view ..

no offence taken as it is not wrong to stand by their view..

but i am too is standing by my view .

for the past years i have been always worrying about how people look at me ...

this is how pressuring thing to be

you cant please everyone, in the end your just not you.

i am not a wise talker . but there ARE things that i said is correct . denie as much as u want but its true

i am not a very good sports person. but there are times i run over you time and time again. denie as much as u want but its true

i am not as a smart schooler like some . but i am going to be a diploma holder right?
denie as much as u want but its true

People would judge me .. so let it be .. i dont need judgement pass down on me.

i am not perfect and so do you!

i believe in fairness in this freaking world

there are things that you cannot do but i can ..

i mature in a different way .. thats all

Cheers to all fucker out there hahaha!

The banana have spoken!