Enbrace the New Generation!

The Banana speaks

its 3 am on a wed morning ... just came back after a walk walk session with porky and tyler. its cool to hang out with them they talk cock and stuff..

but it feels different .. its not fun anymore ... maybe its just that them and i are now leading a total different life style and different mindset..

well not that i dont feel that they are my best friends lah ..

they are indeed good friends of mine...

but some how we are getting more apart.

porky and tyler thinks almost the same ... exciting looking wacky , clubbing, drinking and stuff

they have more topic to talk to each more then with me...

tonight i could count the no of things i talked ... lol first time in my life i am not the most talktive one...

i guess people change, they are happy for me when i am happy, so do i as i would feel the same.

its just that i dont really interact with them much liao.. the bonding is not as close as last time.

they begin to enbrace the new generation...

there are some things i dont like about the new generation... but i dont mind it .

its just old school thinking i guess...

i have being assumed to be such manner ... i dont like it ...

i just feel that now i got a group of good friends but no best friends ...

i guess seeing too much of friends is not a very good thing after all hahahaha

ideally i wish we talk about anything i dont want to the the third person that who just listen to the 2 person talking ...

i feel so left out

so out of place ..

i wanted to tell them that i felt that way but knowing the reply would be i think to much ...

but i do feel that way .. i just dont want to ruin the mood.

i know they treat me like a good friend .. i do too

i cant force them to change, nor could i force my self to change

tyler always tell me there are things porky would tell him but not with me... at first i feel sad coz i tot i am up to a level of friends where we tell everything..

i guess i am not those kinda of person who you want to tell your deep sad sides with ...

maybe some one to just walk with...

well i begin to like the no talking postition.

the other day tyler told me porky ask him to join his clan as a group of 5 players to play dota ... i was quite suprise and mixed up ..

i mean porky nvr invited me into the group before......

at that point i had to play it cool cause if i show any suprise it would make me look immature..


last time as we walk home after such things we would tok on the way back .. but tonight so few word..

i sound like a fucking girl ... why so senstive? right?

maybe be i see too much friends and naruto liao .... must cut down on it....

do i too need to enbrace the new generation? just to click with my good friends?

or am i just living in a little world of my own?

The Banana have spoken