tired

i am very tired ....
some times i feel that i could turn back time lol ... the things i did was stupid and plain dumb ass..

i am trying hard to be a better person ....

found a job i love
refound my faith
but some thing is still missing...

haha i guess its the holidays ... cause i will be spending it with friends again...

Everythings falling apart

Well donno y everythings not quite the smooth way this few weeks.... maybe its my daimuku not enough...

you just feel that your like a butter being stretch over too much bread..

i want to do everything to my best.
my work
my faith
to my family
to my good friends

but some how somethings missing in me .....
i feel very very tired at some pt.

but when i read this sentence by Sensei.

If you practice faith yet have an attitude of complaint, you will destroy your good fortune in direct proportion. Those who are full of complaint are not respected by others. From both Buddhist and secular perspectives, their behavior does not befit a wise or worthy person.

Makes really good sense.

I really need to pick up my tired piece.
the only problem is that i dont spend enough time with family and friends