Monster i am

The Banana Speaks.

Monster i am

I slept at 4 am in the morning... msning with her... my ex (i guess i have to call her that now) .... dishing out all the problems that lead us to this level ......

now i dont dare to look at my self in the mirror for long now..... inside it i dont know who he is now..... it is just a monster..... i lost all my former glory - fallen from grace .....

i became this ugly, paranoid, selfish, lousy, psycho monster... that treats my gf like a private property......

i am so disgusted with myself that i cannot feel anything now.... i cant focus.... i cant think ... i feel regret....

my eyes has not glare ..... so lifeless.....

this is not me .... IT ... is just a monster.....

all i want to do now is bury this monster.... nvr let lost to harm anymore people..... harm no more girls feelings and heart ...... even if it means not ever being loved again by any woman ......

i have to bury it ... i cant kill it cause i will kill myself .... bury it deep deep into the darkest chambers of my mind forever let it suffer with the infernos of hell.....

i shall not received pity nor forgiveness.... for the monster i created....

The Banana Have Spoken