Well then What i wan....

The Banana Speaks

Well then What i wan....

Well just finish my work around my office.... beginning to sit down and chill a bit while waiting for the damn office bell to go off...

started to think wat am i?

who am i? wats my purpose to be brought into this world?

it always freaks me out when i think of wat would i think when i am on my death bed.... yes i fear death.

yet i am fat and dont move about more..... irony laughs at me.

but well i am always being lectured by tyler and porky saying i alway stay in my safety zone. well they are right. i am glad they do that cause with my char dont think they would even bother to be friends with me if they just know me as a person.

People are mostly taught to be safe than sorry... well in my family that is.

get a good education
get a decent job
you know the tipical things

i admit i have responsibilties now as the eldest son i got to provide a bit for the family just because i am the oldest.

sigh..... many would think it so.

but hey if your parents work their ass off just to feed you and cloth you... you should jolly well feel its an honor to repay your parents' debt.

thats the first prior i guess
be stable.

but there is another side of me that clashes with this responsibility

the i want to see the world dream. i wan freedom to do what i always wan.

well guess thats going to wait.

i am lucky that i dont smoke nor drink...
but yet i am still poor

all the money just simply went into my stomach
i guess you can say food is my drug i LOVEEEEE food

but thats my down fall too.

so now this is what i am gonna do if i like food really really much, i must keep the end of the bargain of a healthy and long life. which is to keep fit.

not a very hard thing to do right?
hahaha
well i hope that 6 months from now when i read this entry i can say " well i keep my half of the bargain and kept fit"

about life it self ... i do hope i can more out of my safety zone....
honestly i have no fucking idea how to do it.

i remember 3 years ago the 3 of us went out at clake quay and had that talk... well 3 years now i think the goals i made, i did.

got a diploma

now i cant depend on porky and tyler to give me any more clues or directions on wat i can be.

they have their life to go on and i got mine....
i admit i think totally differently from those 2 . almost oppsite .
but i am thankful...

i am 25 going 26 ...
cant always be a child right?


Throw the ego away but keep the pride....
Do what you got to do for now
and believe something good is going to come in the future.

The Banana have Spoken