Improvenments! Sigh

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Grading Day / Improvement Day

Todays Grading day for me well going for my green belt....

Its suppose to be a fun day for me as i am going to another level of my judo....

but the end point is that i really need to train more harder to let my green belt worthly

if not all would be worthless ... its not about winning people in Randori .. but to able to learn the art of judo.... for so long i am still stuck at the hard core image i gave to the rest....

i want to break out of the Makikomi, well as much as i like that move but i will be rank as a same lvl as a strength using yellow.

even though i am going to be green.... the level of skill is not yet there ... i am not like jason's level when he was green...

i guess i must start to listen to others liao ....

Impovement wise is not about judo... its my project..

My goodness ... my project is so flawed......

and some more i got less than a month to complete that damn thing! Its gonna be a long and hard month.

Well the AEs at the fab really gave a lot of comment and feedbacks on the system....

well i find it hard to swallow when they commented hard on the program that i slave my ass off for....

but some how i have to listen to it as it will improve me ... may be hard to swallow but still have to accept the facts and must work on them.

Well i really looking forward to having a long and relaxing holiday after this attachment.... well its been a really long time since i had a holiday. I really need a time when i can wake up late for a week stright hahahaaha... call me lazy but i do have the right to do what i want hehehe.... maybe take this time to go to the zoo again hehehe or better take jess to the underwater world that i promise i really have to fuill as it was like months since i made that promise....

But now all i can do is to complete what is given to me and complete it before i go jalan jalan in the holidays !!!!

Cheers



The Banana Had Spoken!

Bo liao

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A Bo Liao Day at office

well as you can see i am really bo liao now. so bo liao that i went to do another robot name thing .....

Almost there ....

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Almost There.

Its going to be sept tomorrow ... Finally Sept ! the reason of such happiness is because y attachment is finally coming to an end ... well soon .... well actually a month time... end of sept. But hey 1 month is very short right? just a blink of an eye and here a month....

well i plan to go on 1 months training program to at least get back a bit of shape. I have to admit i have gone FATTER.... not bigger but fat! sigh well it seems like a thing for all attachment students to get fat. Even my fellow attachment mate, Ben, gain a couple of kgs too. Well maybe is due to stress and lack of exercise. hahaha.

My Grading is tomorrow.... well am i nervous? dont think so ... well its just basically katas so shouldn't be much of a problem. hehee (COCKY)

My project is more or less done hehehehe so happy, the best thing is that my boss is not that naggy now. i guess i gave him what he wanted.

To me the end product is the what matters.

almost there ..... almost there.......

YOU INSENSITIVE MAN !

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YOU INSENSITIVE PERSON ~!

Well dont worry its not about anyone but me....

well i thought to myself when i was out of national service i would mature...

i thought i was .....

well seems to me i am not ....

same old me...

Well went out with tyler the other night and he was talking about his ex and how shitty things are currently ....

well it was a simple i need a ear to listen session from a good buddy....

but all i did was bla bla about how i felt about his situation.....

how insensitive is that ......

well he did tell me thats the reason why Porky dont really tell me about his stuff ...

well when it comes to a stage where 2 of your best friends feels that you are not someone to talk to about your feelings .... this really sucks and sad .... very sad cause these are the guys that can help me .....

no feeling can discribe .... well it really makes you remember back the times when we talk about my problems they just listen .... they never say much.....

thats real friends ...

ME? the moron of the 3 is just a bla bla ..... with this character of mine no wonder people would take you seriously not to even tell you their deepest feelings.....

to proof this pt even more in a place where i love to be the most... i seem to have branded my self as a loud speaker... loud speaker of just meaningless noise.....

i thought i gain some respect but i am wrong ... well... this really stinks ....

i feel its simply me talking at the wrong time .... and talk rubbish ....

this is just one of the examples of my insensitive.....

well when your gf tells you " SHUT UP ! You dont understand how i feel now! Just Leave me alone"

Basically means you insensitive pig ! eat shit and die !

the worst thing is she just give you back the cute little flower you just gave her.....

Strike 3!

out!

Its back to the bench......

i am really down seriously ..... this banana has really gone bad

I always believe when 1 person say your a jerk ... maybe its cause he or she is against you.
But when more than 1 person thinks that way .... Damn..... you need to think about it...

First Taste of Dota Bnet

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First Taste of Dota Bnet:

The Taste.... Like shit .... I got owned damn man! So owned i felt disgusted lol ! Well at least i know how to use 2 chars Skeletion King and Centuar ... Both are simple chars well... to be honest is Idiot proof chars only need to use at most 2 buttons lol. well the games kinda fun possible of a addiction lol .. will try to not play that much if not jess will be screaming at me lol .... its so tiring now lol think should stop here and play DOTA !!!! lol!

It a saturday for crying out loud!

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Shit ! its 1534 hr in a seem to be nice saturday... but its the second time i am stuck here in chartered ! its all karma .. for never turning up for work for like 4 days.... this is the payback i get . 4 saturdays burn..... its so reminded me of guard duty at camp on a saturday... Crappy! but in a camp at least you just stone there like a moron... but i have to get my project finished by monday ! oh oh its so kick ..... kick in the nuts that is .... well the only pleasure i have is to find a decent looking blog skin.... kinda like this banana shit .....(Lame O!). Well at least i going home later for some Dota ... provided jessica is not free after the training at the Orchard mandrian. aching all over due to the training yesterday. But come to think about it, i didn't do much yesterday. Such a big headache ahhhh this stupid project! Seriously i feel that my attachment here is like a cleaner .... the only thing i can write in my weekly report is house keeping.

Oh FYI
housekeeping = Clean up the place .

I do a cleaner's work... Hey Bosses! i am here to be a attachment student not a cleaner!

seriously all the things i learned was almost by myself. sigh at least i learned access.

so proud of learning something from scratch... and i mean really from scratch.

the most sad this is that i learned from a dummies book...

thats right Microsoft Access 2003 For Dummies.

yes it makes me look dummy . at least i got my project done.

Well i really don't know the path i seek now is really what i want...

one of the engineer suggest we all go to gym and train for a couple of years then wait until 2009 where the IR in singapore opens we can pimp our ass off .

Fuck..... crazy lol

i rather be the pimp....

Robot!

Boring day.....

Well its an average day, my boss ask me to label the whole rack SHIT! but still have to do it .. sigh... well the fun thing was that my boss's son was brought to this world. birth is such a wonderful thing... well from a man's pt of view is .... oh shit ! need to work my ass off to buy milk powders and dipers !

the son's name is Gabriel... well i did heard him saying this name before but never really expected him to give his son this name. Well Gabirel sounds nice has that soft but yet strong feeling.

other then a birth of a child to this world the rest of the day seem like a mono tone drama .......... boring......................................

Thank you........

Well tomorrow i am stepping do the post as president of the judo club liao... well some pple ask me am i happy cause Finally i am out of the miserly. but well to tell the truth i am have mix feelings.

i found some thing that other than basketball , that i love .

well i feel that i failed a challange . a challange to let the judo club be one of the biggest martial art club in NYP... hahaha too big of a challange?

well to be the truth i was blinded for a while . i got lost.

but only lately i begin to know that i was wrong.

i admit i didnt do a good job at the post given to me and here i here by apoligise for my wrong doings. and hope all can be forgiven.

well i now think i can focus on training liao as i know i am not up to standard. i miss the tough training i had the sweat i have.... now maybe i can do it with the real passion.

well i have to thank Sensei Stephen, Sensei Francis, Sensei Romain for your guidences in my path of judo. i will try to learn more from your guidence in judo.

thanks to Senpai Ling Fong for giving me the tough training when i was in yr 1.

thanks to Senpai Wei Siong for guiding me along the training i learn a lot from you. i hope i can learn more from u.

To Jason , a good friend of mine in the dojo and outside. i learn a lot from you . and thank you for enlight me when i am lost . well your right. just do what u can bo chap other thing and dont think wat people say i thank you for that. hope we be buddies for time to come.

I thank all the year 2s

Anthony,
HuiShan,
Micheal,
Kenji,
Lilies,
Allen,
Weisiong,
Wilson,
YaoZong,
Kenneth,
AhTan,
Lynn,
SoonPoh....

thank you for your support

for all your jokes and training. i hope if there is any bad stuff between us i hope we can just throw it behind us . all good friends right?

to jessica my gal my love . thank you for the support u given me. hope we can train judo together more!

Thank you Dennis for helping me out for some activity i always look upon u as a good friend to help me when i needed it . I thank your again.

Thank you Wanee Ivan Felicia Peishan for the support when i am in post.

To the yr 1s i am sorry that i cant be there for all the training coz i am on attachment. i always hope i can spent more time with u guys to train together . i know i am some times a bit lame and loud well life is suppose to be fun. being a bit lame when your with a bunch of friends y not right? i hope i can spend more time in training with all u guys!

i am sorry if i left any one out in this . if i do i am sorry.

all u guys i thank you again for the support and hope all of us can expand the club more ! and spread all the love of judo the art of judo to all !

I like Judo

Well i do like judo but some how i have disgrace it. By not training hard enough for it. These 1 year i have been blinded by some thing which have me let down on the sport other than basketball that i have love. I thought i could do it but seems to me i have not done the best. but hey! i am only human... but now i have to find my path ... personally.... work....... and of coz the passion that i had when i touch this sports...