Sigh ...

Sigh okok so i was a bit rush ....

maybe the though of my dad's accident is cause by reckless driving really pissed me off and starts toking about women cant drive . for that i am sorry..

immmuture think in my part , my bad~
but hey no ones perfect!

for me i'm just a bit rush..anger's fucked up the mind...

but that doesnt make me a lousy person right?

well i always tell my self i'm still young shit happens

but i just reliese i am 25 next yr god damn 5 yrs more i am 30?!

what have i done for the past 25?
i dont think i have matured
dont think my folks nor my sister thinks i am 24
more like 17

hrm..... this kind of question really makes u think huh?

well the only thing i understand all these while is respect is to be earned well it seems that i am not doing well enough to earned it

my peers would think that i am a joke hahahaa

well i do try my best
when i look back 5 to 6 years ago ......... i was a joke!
well now ... still a joke but a mild one....
but hey thats not the point ... i am still a joke hahaah a joke is a joke
cant i escape that?
a chinese saying " a leopard can't change its spot" lol !
my peers dont respect me cause of the past conduct i gave them ....
well its true it really hard to change people's view about yourself once you screwed up lol.....
sad truth
aydeng would still be aydeng
allan would still be the same old allan

cant change it one

once your a disgusting, lame , bored person.... your one forever hahahaa

well ya i am still those things .... but i milder now dont people notice it? hahahahaa
okie maybe the weight is still here hahahaa