The day of sugar and spice....

26 Sept 2004 12.10 am warm night.

Well on 25th Saturday was full of memories (happy ones)
Jess was with me the whole day well i took her to have tanjong pargar's famous nasi lemak as promised (lucky it was opened)
when i met her in the morning oh dear her lips was so white and so pale ! it hurts my heart to see her like that....
Well after nasi lemak i guide her to the steps where it was near the flower shop..... cos i planned to give her flower... i chose the orange sunflower cos i knew that she likes light bright colours and how i felt what she means to me .....

mushy right? hehehehe well i dont care! as long she and i are happy

everything was so ..... happy unbelieveably happy!

everytime i hold her hand and she holds mine.....

but there are a bit of sadness in it ........ she know's i was going to someone's birthday someone whom i had a crush on a couple of yrs ago..... she said that i fall for one too easily ....... at that point i felt crush ......... crush that i still didnt gain my baby's trust and confident..... i felt like crying ....... but i was determind to show her that she is the only one in my mind and heart now ... the one and only! but she says that she's scared that i would fall for jody again ... and she would lost me .... baby you are not gonna lost me ! no where even near of losing me cos i like you so much !

the other thing was that she cried cos of a misunderstanding comment made by my best fren tyler ... which was meant for me not her .... i felt like a failure that i made my girl cry ... i was so helpless ..... i didnt do well as a bf role of not making my gal drop any tears....

but today was one of those sugar and spice plus everything nice days....
i want this kind of day to be everyday !

Dear! naan unnai kaathelikkirain!