Woke up feeling empty........

11.30 am 5th Sept 2004 ... Bright .

Well woke up this morning feeling ................ fear inside......... emptiness inside............. confused inside............. must be the dream i had ... couldn't remember it ..... but what it left me was pure depression .. and a crying feeling.
As i woke up i said to myself"Damn it man this cannot go on my life cannot be filled with all these fears and emptiness i am still young ! i cant be such a weakling . Even though i wasnt the best i can try being one! .... I cannot be the weakling that i was last time"
i felt like screaming ! ..... Shouting seems to be the only thing that can let my feelings and frustrations out , always feel better after a good shouting. Some how me shouting makes people around me feels that i am agressive ...... well i am agressive when it comes to sports (its an army thing) where i can show passion and respect for the sport i am playing.

I always wish that this passion will go to my life ...