Rainy Day.......

The Banana Speaks

Rainy Day.....

its a monday morning....
currently working .... what the hell ... working? lol what work....
i can't say my life is miserable ... its just i donno how to orgnize it properly ...
its kinda empty at the moment....

for the first time of my life i feel like knocking my self on the wall and bleed to death...

wouldn't it be nice to have things your own way all the time?
hahaha but we all have to admit... you can't have it always your F**king way ..
.. well unless your capable i mean really capable...

well i see my self currently as not capable to do so ....

depression is part of what i am ... but i hope to throw it a way

my best friends have moved on to another stage of life
i am still at a stage where immature is a problem..

it bites ..
but can't do anything about it but to grow i guess.

i donno what i want now ... yes i know

there is a list of must to complete ....

hrm .... list .... screw it ... i dont need a list ... i do what i want

alone i am

think i have gotten use to be alone ... kinda liked it

the reason why i wish i wanna train more on judo more ... is because i love it, i love the rush when you step on the mat.... but time blocks me ....

the reason why i wish i can hang out more with tyler and porky more is that they are my best friend... cause they helped me in time of need ..and not because we know each other for near 20 years... but they can't always be there... they are at a different stage now ....

the reason why i wish to go out with Jess more ... is cause i love her... i care for her... i have to admit i still got tons of things i donno about her.... i want to know .,.. but she can't always be there.... her family restricts her... she has her friends and own future ... she can't stick with me all the time....

the reason why i wish know my family more is ... just because its my family ... no more reason for that ... basiclly no reasons for this... cause i just wanna

all of the above is what is important to me ...

no reasons

there are times it does not go your way....

well what can i say?

its a very rainy day .....

do what your gonna do .....

get a rain coat by your self ... dont expect others to get it for you.....


The banana have spoken.....